Fat and Not Afraid

Happy Thursday folks! Big news today in the world of JeninCanada-land; I'm pregnant! Yesterday was my first ultrasound and I'm measuring at 11 weeks and 2 days. I've known since the middle of December for sure (thank you over the counter pregnancy test) and highly suspicious since before that (ooowww my boobs). Since everything seems to be going well I figured it was time to tell my family and of course, the internet! lol Ryan is his usual not-too-excited yet self, but I understand as this is something that's happening to me while he watches, not something that's happening to us or to him. He just has to deal with my nausea and tiredness for now, but later I know he'll metamorph into Super Dad 2.0 and it makes my heart melt to think of him holding another wee little person we created. <3

Being a fat lady my stomach looks almost the same, though I do notice my pants are already a bit more snug and so is my bra (did I mention ow boobs?), so there'll not be any bump pictures for a while. I had no trouble with the ultrasound tech today, no comments about my weight or fat getting in the way of their instrument, and my midwife seems pretty cool. Other than a comment at our first visit a month ago about eating healthy, she hasn't said a word about my size. I shouldn't be too surprised though; I'm 'average' size, a small fat, so not subjected to the same kind of nasty behaviours my bigger sisters of size endure when pregnant. That's my thin-enough privilege, and I acknowledge it.

Well-Rounded Mama's blog is a fantastic resource for fat moms and moms-to-be; I'll be spending a lot of time there over the next 6-7 months, planning for a Vaginal Birth After Cesearean (sadly at the hospital and not at home since the regional hospital doesn't allow for midwives to try VBAC at home) but trying not to get my hopes up too high. It's been 5 years, almost 6 by the time this one's ready to arrive, and a c-section might be my only option. *deep breath*

Don't forget about Monday's contest! Open till 11:59pm Sunday night (my time PST). I've got some good entries so far, but I'm in need of more! Also, happy Imbolc for those you celebrating this important Celtic fire-festival.

Gabe, just a few days old and home for the first time from the hospital.